If I could be given the opportunity to stand in front of a panel of the greatest minds of all time, from all eras of humanity, to have them ask me what it is that I find beautiful so they could take it back to their times and their peoples to share it, I wouldn’t say the oceans, or the mountains, or the stars. I’d, instead, reply with a great sense of pride and satisfaction, “The feeling that my swallow gives me every minute of everyday.”

If you’re ever feeling really lonely, astray, despair or longing, all ya gotta do babe is go outside and just look up. Yep, look up. That’s it… Doesn’t matter if it’s night, cloudy, sunny, raining, hailing. You’re feeling like you’re missing me too much, just look up. You look up because it’s the same sky I’m looking at. Always is and will be, no one and nothing can change that. It’ll keep our hearts aligned.

I’m tearing as I retype that onto here.

Everyone deserves to feel this way; to feel like they have someone. No matter how far, no matter how close. Something just as simple as looking into the same sky can bring you closer or align your hearts. Everyone deserves a connection like that. As sinister and cynical as the people of this world is, I honestly believe everyone deserves the chance to be loved, to feel wanted, to feel needed, to feel adored. Whether they choose to accept the person that’s offering this is another story, but everyone has that one person.

I truly believe that.

I guess this is my only getaway in the virtual world at this point.

ちょっと寂しいですが大丈夫よ。今、日本にいる。でもあたしの心が日本にいない。

I truly believe in fate and destiny. I believe that if you put your mind to it, the universe will slowly work its way towards your positive energy and make things work in your favor. I strongly believe that. But I also believe it works for the negative as well. The more you think about, the more you believe that something is happening, even if it’s not at this very moment, the amount of energy you’re exerting causes the universe to gravitate towards that decision.

At this point in my life, I have everything I could ask for. But then again, I also have things standing in the way of achieving the ultimate goal. 例えば：時間とX恋人と私たちの歳。

But I’m going to keep at it. Keep making the universe gravitate towards my wants and needs. Although.. it seems a tad selfish, I think my happiness is what’s important right now. Nothing else.

Excuse my selfishness. But I’ve been selfless long enough. It’s time to take back a little from all that I’ve given.

But, why the Prince? Why not the Knight in Shining Armor? The hero that’s actually able of protecting me, of shielding me against the world. In my previous blogs, I’ve talked about how fairy tales don’t exist and that my prince doesn’t exist. Which is right. No girls’ Prince exists. But we all have a Knight in Shining Armor.

He’s not show off-y about his amazing abilities. He does the little things that start to add up. And before you know it, he’s swept you off your feet. He’s saved you from the castle you’ve been locked up in. Or maybe, the castle you’re locked up in actually is the best place for you. And he’ll stay with you in that dark castle, and it’ll become not so dark. Instead, it’ll be the most wonderful place you’ll ever be.

Not only will he make your darkest days and places bright, but he will further protect you from all harm. He might not be your Prince, but you are most definitely his Princess. He’ll fight wars, both internally and externally, for you. He’ll fight off all evil and harm for you. He’ll make sure that his Princess is always happy. YOU will be his priority. Never again will you have to worry about not having protection, about not having a shield, about not having everything you want. Because he will fight to the end to make sure you get everything you deserve, want and more.

He’ll be that one that you’re afraid of, because of the armor he has on. Because of the strong exterior he has. You’ll think he’ll never be that person you’re looking for. But in reality, underneath all that armor, he’s got a heart of gold.

He’ll give up what he once thought was important just to stay near you, just to be with you. He’ll wait extreme amounts of time to say that he’s perfected himself for you, that he’s gotten rid of the rough edges and what he has to offer you is a flawless, shining jewel.

He’ll fight off sleep to stay up with you, to make sure you’re okay. Whether it’s the pettiest thing in the world, or if the world is crashing down on you, he’ll pull you into his arms, hold you tight and whisper in your ear “My Beautiful Princess, everything will be okay. I got you.”

That, my ladies, is what you should be looking for.

Stop looking for your Prince. Instead, notice the Knight in Shining Armor that’s been guarding you and shielding you and protecting you all this time. Even if he may not know it yet, he’ll see it one day. And so will you.

愛している〜

How did we let them slip away?

And why have those that have come to replace,

seem also unworthy of the title “gentleman.”

“Where is the love?”

Lyrics uttered by the Black Eyed Peas but really,

how did it leave me,

leave you,

leave us.

Why is it that when it comes down to it,

no one cares, gives a damn,

about the good guys.

Now I question you:

Where can I find these gentleman, the men we fall in love with

in movies, in novels, in fairy tales.

How can I revive the dreams

of handsome princes that sweep us off our feet.

And why is it taking so long for us to realize

the gentlemen that are in our presence.

So here’s a blog to those girls that don’t appreciate the men that are actually worthy of being called gentlemen. You know the type don’t you ladies? Those that will take you out to eat “just cause,” and well, when the bill comes, it’s a “don’t worry about it” or “don’t you even think about it!” Now I must admit, there aren’t many of those men in MY life, but I do know of a couple.

Let’s just be fair now ladies. How many times have you accepted an invitation to go out to eat, not somewhere cheap, somewhere very nice, and never returned that favor? How many times have you called your “just a friend” crying and bawling your eyes out because the jerk (like the one mentioned in the last entry) did something stupid? And how many times has this happened where you never gave them even the time of day after the situation occurred? Mmhm.. Exactly.

What makes it even worse is the fact that these sweet guys that we take for granted will eventually turn into the jerk that we don’t want them to be, because of girls that treat them unfair and take them for granted. We play a role in their personalities as well as how they treat girls. Yes, there are guys that are just born jerks. But many were really very sweet prior to our encounters with them, but due to not being “handled with care”by others, we suffer the consequences.

So I know this is definitely a shorter blog than my other one, but I just had to get this out there before it left my mind.

One last thought: next time, before you take advantage of the guy that just seems to be “always there,” think of the next girl that might deal with them and because of YOU, they’ll have to deal with the jerk that you cry about.

xoxo Risa

I’m sick of hearing people tell me about domestic abuse (both psychological and physical) and the unneccesary situations that girls go through in relationships. Don’t get me wrong gentleman, actually, NO. You guys aren’t even worth that title anymore. But anyways, some of you DO do stuff correctly in relationships but the screaming, cussing, ‘talking-to-your-girl-like-your-homie’ is NOT floating my boat. Make sense?

If not clear enough yet, let me get more detailed:
If you are one of those BOYS (no, not men, BOYS) that stay out til the sun comes up, and you leave your loving girlfriend at home WAITING for you to come home or to even receive an update status from you, YOU are who I am speaking to at the moment. If you are one of THOSE that choose to blow off situations in which, if it were the reverse, you would be very upset with, YOU are who I am speaking to. If you are one of those that can roll over on your lazy fat ass if your girlfriend is out late at night and fall asleep, then yes. I am speaking to you.

Frankly, relationships nowadays really don’t seem worth it to me at this point. Today, I heard about a lovely young girl who had a boyfriend cheat on her, and as a present for doing this to her, gave her Chlamydia. What a fucking wonderful insult to injury, no?

If you boys really think this is how girls should be treated, I suggest you go drive your loud-ass-fucking- car off the face of this earth. Thank you. You will do this world a lot of good. Oh, I’m sorry, did I hurt your feelings? TOO.DAMN.BAD.

So, many of you who know me personally may wonder “Hm.. Did Risa break up with her boyfriend?” or “Hm.. What happened?!” The answer to your question is NOTHING HAPPENED. I just have the need to let this off my chest because it’s been bothering me for a while.

Now don’t get me wrong. I don’t hate men. I’m not lesbian nor will I become lesbian (though I might say that at times) but I won’t. At least not for now. But I’d really appreciate it if you BOYS would turn into MEN. Remember chivalry? My dears, that is NOT dead and most girls would LOVE flowers. Remember, her favorite color & type of flower. Oh wait, you can’t remember all that? My bad. Just remember one then. It’ll get you VERY far. Trust me. Unless.. your girlfriend is alergic to flowers then OOPS! REMEMBER THAT! And girls love it when you are worthy of being called a gentleman. Open doors, pull out chairs, tell her she looks pretty today. No no, wait. FUCK THAT. You tell her she looks BEAUTIFUL today. And if she gives you the “So I don’t look beautiful everyday?” Well, my dear, you have fucked up somewhere

You should be telling she is beautiful EVERY day. You should be telling her you want to wake up next to her. You should be telling her how much you love her. Actually, no. SHOW her. Show her you miss her. Show her you love her. Don’t fucking tell her. WORDS MEAN NOTHING! Words will only get you so far. And that is probably the first couple months. SO, after those first COUPLE wonderful lovey-dovey months, you have to have some action to your words. Don’t merely say them; do it. Please and thank you

Oh and one last thought for the night: If you happen to have a girl that is wifey status on your hands and you lose her, trust me. You’ll be thinking about her far, far off in the future. Don’t believe me? You’ll see

Good night interwebz. I shall see you another day

xoxo Risa